Heve you ever...

Guessing, what kinda letter i can write? i mean. the girl like me.

it's just feel like i have a lot of words trapped in my head that i wanna tell everyone around me. Since the day i left from my hometown and now i'm passing day by day without my parents here in a stranger town that i had never expect i would live here for long time. New beginning, new environment, new people, and new story.

i did ever think one thing, am i really enjoying this new situation or i'm actually not enjoying, just because i'm here in present and need to adapt a new life?

as i said on my previous post, i have found so many kind of people. bad side, good side. every things are mixed.

at this moment, i wanna admit that i'm enjoying my self like this, hang out with friends that i didn't know before, even i feel more comfortable being with 'em.

at the other situation, i hate to be the one who must take care of anything, anysh*tthing?

have you ever....

be blamed of what you never did?

be disappointed of the one you trust the most?

be cheated ?

i was wondering if i could create new chapter which is gonna be better in my whole life, but i don't know is it really exist? or i'm walking to it? i havn't even find it out. but, one of my friend said "nature will conspire to take you to what you want as long as you believe that you can get it" - @astridjunaidi .

what i'm trying to say, the other friend asked me about people perception.

have you ever think,

why do people should worry about people perception?

why do people should care about people perception?

for example,

 if i wanna hang out with my friend, i will automatically think that i need make up on my face. 

why? because people perception? 

the other example,

if you were in a crowded, and you acted like a crazy guy even if you're not, why do you should shy?

is it because people perception?

and he told me, we should not worry about people perception, he meant, "this is my f*cking life man!".

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